Even after 1 year, it hasn’t really sunk in yet that Irrfan Khan had passed away.
Yes, it’s been a year since the gem of a person & actor Irrfan left all of us.
The Paan Singh Tomar actor left such a void in wife Sutapa Sikdar and sons Babil & Ayaan’s lives, our lives, the world of cinema that is impossible to fill.
Recently, while talking to TOI, late Irrfan Khan’s elder son Babil opened up on his life after his father’s death, his struggle to deal with the pain, and his regret, and how he fell apart two days after Irrfan’s sudden and untimely demise.
Reminiscing the days when Irrfan was in the hospital for his treatment, Babil told the leading daily, “For the first few days, Mom was like how is that he is taking it so well? I was running around, doing everything, making sure everything was fine at home and at the hospital. It was really bad, though. I can’t explain the amount of pain he was going through when he was conscious.”
“I particularly remember when they were going to put a catheter, and asked me to leave the room, and he almost yelled, ‘Babil, tum kahin mat jao mujhe chhod ke!’ They pulled me out of the room and he screamed my name. I never felt that much pain and helplessness. I just stood there outside, hearing him scream my name,” he added.
He further revealed how he crashed after two days and went into “deep deep depression”. “I dealt with it well in that moment, but after he passed – initially, Mumma was surprised how well I was taking it – but two days after he passed away, I crashed. I just crashed. Everything shut off. I went into deep, deep depression. I can’t even explain. There was no will to wake up. I was very suicidal…,” Babil I. Khan shared.
He went on to say that his mother Sutapa was his pillar of strength. “I was done. I didn’t have any will to live. I still struggle with it a lot. And at that time, Mumma was the strength. She has always been the strength of our family. Throughout Baba’s career. You know everyone’s like Baba was this, Baba was that – but Baba wouldn’t have been anything without Mumma, she’s been the strength of the family,” he concluded.
On the work front, Babil will soon make his acting debut with the Netflix film Qala.